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I grew up always being extremely into morbid content. It was probably when I was eight years old that the interest really sparked. It first started off ā€œrelatively tameā€. I watched YouTube commentary videos discussing topics such as; murders, suicides, kidnappings, school shootings/shootings in general, pedos, sadistic criminal cases, fetish deaths, cults, ect. Ect. Then, when I was a little older, it turned into reading grotesque literature, watching torture-porn movies, and listening to true crime podcasts. (Gotta love parents who donā€™t give a shit!) It definitely didnā€™t take long for me to eventually stumble across my first ever gore video. (On my crappy out-dated phone.) It was a very infamous video of a man shooting himself with a rifle during a facebook live. I remember when I first saw it I was around fourteen? Maybe fifteen? Regardless, I was absolutely mortified. I felt so sick to my stomach after that. It was so fucking weird to watch someoneā€™s life be taken away just by the mere pull of a sensitive trigger, nonetheless by his own hands? Though, my emotions were such a blurred shit-show. After watching it, I couldnā€™t stop? It was really weird. The video played constantly in my head over and over again on loop for weeks. Everyday I would come home and watch that video. Seeing his head completely deflate and turn into nothing was fascinating. This wasnā€™t the only thing, though. I watched the wrist slit scene from ā€œ13 reasons whyā€, and god, that really fucked me up. Once again, I couldnā€™t stop watching it. Seeing the blade sink into her wrists as she bled out into the tub made me fucking sick. My stomach still churns thinking about it! Of course, I couldnā€™t and didnā€™t stop thinking/watching these fucked up things. (Actual gore videos.) Seeing peopleā€™s lives be stripped away in the most gruesome way possible is so odd. Itā€™s fucked up and twisted, honestly. The crazy feeling of adrenaline and anxiety that I feel viewing gore content is like a drug. Itā€™s this crazy thrill that I canā€™t get enough of. I enjoy the fear. Seeing content that seems to keep getting worse and worseā€¦itā€™s impossible to NOT look. I guess I simply enjoy feelingā€¦I donā€™t even know? Itā€™s really hard to describe. It kinda feels like a dirty secret; something that only I will know, something that I find enjoyment/entertainment in, that others would find disgusting and inhumane to even think about. (This sounds like such an edge lord thing to say, lol. Sorry!) Anyhow, I guess I simply like it? But, even then, ā€œlikeā€ doesnā€™t feel like the proper word? Itā€™s really confusing. I absolutely do agree that; yes, this kind of content is deranged. That the people filming their murders/crimes should, and with all due disrespectā€¦kill themselves. Watching this content is also another way to pass time, too. So, thereā€™s that I guess? But, for the most part, I usually indulge in this content to gross myself out. To see how much I can take.
I would go into this much further but this post is already so fucking long. So, to boil it down; To pass time and to freak myself out. And, to cure morbid curiosity. :)
 
Awesomesauce said:
I grew up always being extremely into morbid content. It was probably when I was eight years old that the interest really sparked. It first started off ā€œrelatively tameā€. I watched YouTube commentary videos discussing topics such as; murders, suicides, kidnappings, school shootings/shootings in general, pedos, sadistic criminal cases, fetish deaths, cults, ect. Ect. Then, when I was a little older, it turned into reading grotesque literature, watching torture-porn movies, and listening to true crime podcasts. (Gotta love parents who donā€™t give a shit!) It definitely didnā€™t take long for me to eventually stumble across my first ever gore video. (On my crappy out-dated phone.) It was a very infamous video of a man shooting himself with a rifle during a facebook live. I remember when I first saw it I was around fourteen? Maybe fifteen? Regardless, I was absolutely mortified. I felt so sick to my stomach after that. It was so fucking weird to watch someoneā€™s life be taken away just by the mere pull of a sensitive trigger, nonetheless by his own hands? Though, my emotions were such a blurred shit-show. After watching it, I couldnā€™t stop? It was really weird. The video played constantly in my head over and over again on loop for weeks. Everyday I would come home and watch that video. Seeing his head completely deflate and turn into nothing was fascinating. This wasnā€™t the only thing, though. I watched the wrist slit scene from ā€œ13 reasons whyā€, and god, that really fucked me up. Once again, I couldnā€™t stop watching it. Seeing the blade sink into her wrists as she bled out into the tub made me fucking sick. My stomach still churns thinking about it! Of course, I couldnā€™t and didnā€™t stop thinking/watching these fucked up things. (Actual gore videos.) Seeing peopleā€™s lives be stripped away in the most gruesome way possible is so odd. Itā€™s fucked up and twisted, honestly. The crazy feeling of adrenaline and anxiety that I feel viewing gore content is like a drug. Itā€™s this crazy thrill that I canā€™t get enough of. I enjoy the fear. Seeing content that seems to keep getting worse and worseā€¦itā€™s impossible to NOT look. I guess I simply enjoy feelingā€¦I donā€™t even know? Itā€™s really hard to describe. It kinda feels like a dirty secret; something that only I will know, something that I find enjoyment/entertainment in, that others would find disgusting and inhumane to even think about. (This sounds like such an edge lord thing to say, lol. Sorry!) Anyhow, I guess I simply like it? But, even then, ā€œlikeā€ doesnā€™t feel like the proper word? Itā€™s really confusing. I absolutely do agree that; yes, this kind of content is deranged. That the people filming their murders/crimes should, and with all due disrespectā€¦kill themselves. Watching this content is also another way to pass time, too. So, thereā€™s that I guess? But, for the most part, I usually indulge in this content to gross myself out. To see how much I can take.
I would go into this much further but this post is already so fucking long. So, to boil it down; To pass time and to freak myself out. And, to cure morbid curiosity. :)
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DarkLife36 said:
What is the reason you guys watch gore videos?
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well unlike others may be mine is one word
boredom
lmfao, i only started watching gore in the last like 3 years ago and I never knew why i liked watching but i think its just because the internet has become of such trash memes and media that doesnt make me smile laugh or keep me interested but gore does because i never know if ill see something bad or really bad lol
 
Awesomesauce said:
I grew up always being extremely into morbid content. It was probably when I was eight years old that the interest really sparked. It first started off ā€œrelatively tameā€. I watched YouTube commentary videos discussing topics such as; murders, suicides, kidnappings, school shootings/shootings in general, pedos, sadistic criminal cases, fetish deaths, cults, ect. Ect. Then, when I was a little older, it turned into reading grotesque literature, watching torture-porn movies, and listening to true crime podcasts. (Gotta love parents who donā€™t give a shit!) It definitely didnā€™t take long for me to eventually stumble across my first ever gore video. (On my crappy out-dated phone.) It was a very infamous video of a man shooting himself with a rifle during a facebook live. I remember when I first saw it I was around fourteen? Maybe fifteen? Regardless, I was absolutely mortified. I felt so sick to my stomach after that. It was so fucking weird to watch someoneā€™s life be taken away just by the mere pull of a sensitive trigger, nonetheless by his own hands? Though, my emotions were such a blurred shit-show. After watching it, I couldnā€™t stop? It was really weird. The video played constantly in my head over and over again on loop for weeks. Everyday I would come home and watch that video. Seeing his head completely deflate and turn into nothing was fascinating. This wasnā€™t the only thing, though. I watched the wrist slit scene from ā€œ13 reasons whyā€, and god, that really fucked me up. Once again, I couldnā€™t stop watching it. Seeing the blade sink into her wrists as she bled out into the tub made me fucking sick. My stomach still churns thinking about it! Of course, I couldnā€™t and didnā€™t stop thinking/watching these fucked up things. (Actual gore videos.) Seeing peopleā€™s lives be stripped away in the most gruesome way possible is so odd. Itā€™s fucked up and twisted, honestly. The crazy feeling of adrenaline and anxiety that I feel viewing gore content is like a drug. Itā€™s this crazy thrill that I canā€™t get enough of. I enjoy the fear. Seeing content that seems to keep getting worse and worseā€¦itā€™s impossible to NOT look. I guess I simply enjoy feelingā€¦I donā€™t even know? Itā€™s really hard to describe. It kinda feels like a dirty secret; something that only I will know, something that I find enjoyment/entertainment in, that others would find disgusting and inhumane to even think about. (This sounds like such an edge lord thing to say, lol. Sorry!) Anyhow, I guess I simply like it? But, even then, ā€œlikeā€ doesnā€™t feel like the proper word? Itā€™s really confusing. I absolutely do agree that; yes, this kind of content is deranged. That the people filming their murders/crimes should, and with all due disrespectā€¦kill themselves. Watching this content is also another way to pass time, too. So, thereā€™s that I guess? But, for the most part, I usually indulge in this content to gross myself out. To see how much I can take.
I would go into this much further but this post is already so fucking long. So, to boil it down; To pass time and to freak myself out. And, to cure morbid curiosity. :)
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Ya im not going to lie i refuse to read that and wonder if anyone else is going to:ROFLMAO:šŸ§
 
Accidentally stumbled upon gore for the first time when I was 8, was absolutely horrified by it, but couldn't stop watching. Thank God, my dad didn't check the search history. When I was much older, probably 15, I sometimes searched for videos that could make feel the same. I think, almost avyone here can remember seeing their first gore video. Remember that? What did you feel? Horror, disgust, fear, maybe you've seen something so terrible it made you feel sick? That's the feeling I was looking for. This year I realised that I've seen almost everything, but it doesn't stop me from watching gore. I'm just used to it.
 
Legion said:
Tried to turn my Grandfather around when he was laying face down in his own Pool of Blood as i was about 3 years old...
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I had similar thing happen to me with my dad when i was really young but he recovered and is fine still to this day so i didnt gain "trauma" really
 
Htuvnmqnb said:
What was your first
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hahaha i was tryna think back now i remember, the first time i ever saw gore was a few years ago when @MeowZedong showed me the video of a pitbull eating a guys ballsack off
no joke
and then after i was obsessed with watching the cartel torture videos because it was always fascinating to watch the methods in which sub-humans torture other sub-humans, and then after all the cartel videos desensitized me now the only videos that make me go "hell no" are the ones ive seen of people drowning people, idk why, i just never have like going underwater
 
Htuvnmqnb said:
What was your first
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It's been so long, I don't even remember. I sometimes find the photos which I've seen back when I was 8, but other than that I can't recall anything. The site that caught my attention didn't have many videos, it was mostly about photos.
Wait, I just remembered 1 guy 1 jar lol, I'm still surprised I haven't seen his bleeding ass in nightmares. It wasn't the first I've seen but the first one that I remember.
 
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0MG said:
It's been so long, I don't even remember. I sometimes find the photos which I've seen back when I was 8, but other than that I can't recall anything. The site that caught my attention didn't have many videos, it was mostly about photos.
Wait, I just remembered 1 guy 1 jar lol, I'm still surprised I haven't seen his bleeding ass in nightmares.
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bro same i saw that and was confused why he was SILENT i would be screaming from pain of shattered jar bruh:eek:
 
0MG said:
Human intestines have almost no pain receptors, the same reason why colon cancer gets unnoticed.
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lol i thought he was just dedicated to his craft and didnt wanna ruin it for his fans, also until i was informed otherwised i guess i thought it was planned but i was told he didnt put water in it or something and tats why it cracked, it was an accident i guess :ROFLMAO:
 
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