Bro I have a feeling that you are ashamed of creating this mixtape, but why? It's one the best and most shocking mixtapes I've ever seen and it 100% serves its purpose.Wouldn´t recommend looking for it...
Btw I finally laid my hands on archive of your mixes, it's really interesting to see how much you tastes developed over time. Stay safe bro and don't stop doing what makes you feel better.